It’s been an interesting week, one in which I’ve been angry on no less than three separate occasions.
It’s interesting because I rarely feel anger – true anger – but as I get older, a combination of not caring what others think of me and not being able to hold my tongue when I see an injustice or deliberate misdirection is leading me to be more outspoken than in previous years.
One of the occasions for anger blew over when was when I was able to say ‘enough’ over a situation that’s been going on for quite some time, and realise that I had had enough of buying into the discrete group/majority’s way of dealing with. It posed an unhealthy level of stress for me, so I decided that was it, enough. It might upset some people’s applecarts along the way but they’ll survive. I wasn’t allowing myself to deal with the situation honestly, and once I did, well, stress was relieved and anger dissipated.
Occasion two was on seeing a public figure being admired who I see as a bit of a ‘false prophet’, and whose faults don’t need much digging to uncover. I was forthright in my views on that one and may have offended a new friend, for which I’m sorry. But again, the option of not being able to be honest – or just holding my tongue – didn’t feel like a stress-free option. It says something about my new friend that he let me say my piece in full on his Facebook page and left it up. Sir, if you are reading this, you are a gentleman and I thank you for your indulgence.
Occasion three was a gut reaction after seeing a friend verbally attacked in quite a horrible way. Her other friends responded in reasonably sophisticated ways but I just kicked off Glasgow-style. I was talked down from the aggression ledge by someone else who is now a Facebook friend and who is also a gentleman, and who seems to have dealt with the problems very stylishly behind the scenes. Kudos, sir.
Interestingly, all of these occurred in my personal life rather than working life.
Ah, maybe it’s just me getting older, and crankier. Get me a walking stick so I can shake it at teenagers in the street!